Dog Days

It's been so long since I've lost myself
 I try to hide it but I know it shows
 I cut myself off from reality
 And slipped away with the undertow
 It's so easy to be held down by the weight of doubt
 Add up the days since I saw you last
 And burn from the inside out
 The hourglass has cracked; still time drags on
 I'm sick of living my life in spite of you
 I'm sick of losing sleep
 I wish that I could try and tell the truth
 Instead of lying through my teeth
 Running through all my thoughts on me and you
 A cycle on repeat
 Let the rotations cease and finally see:
 The only one that I've been losing here is me
 You watched me slip, you let me sink
 And I fell out of reach
 Your hands were tied
 But mine were free to ruin everything that was good around me
 Wounds heal in time
 But this hate inside is mine to keep
 My mind is a sinking ship beneath the empty sea
 My heart is a burning home
 But you're not what I need
 This isn't what I need