The Only One

I was a nigga in my younger days
 I even went through the phase as an angry ass black man
 I played the pan-african for a week
 Until I rocked up in Seattle when that racist shit ceased
 I met some sisters out in Mozambique, who asked me
 What part of africa was my fam tree
 It would have to be Réunion
 An Island on the coast that was conquered by the French a long time ago
 A true foe like I'm Francois
 I gotta stand by my blood like BLOOD
 Though I am not them
 I pretend to be me, every now and then
 Even though some days I wasn't proud of kin?
 I was childish then, found a style again
 Lost my self trying to follow men
 Reading books to fill this hollow skin
 Couldn't swim till they found me in the shallow end
 Used to win back when I didn't know how to win
 And now I spend money, trying to get my smile grinning
 Grim living foul feeling?
 Not to sin, but religion isn't in me anymore
 So the lord doesn't care if I'm sore
 Sick of thinking what I'm here for
 Trying to be content with that, but fuck that
 I want my love back, my lust, my trust back
 And keep this freedom I don't wanna rap
 I'm trying to be alive again
 Wanna feel like I can fly again
 They say the limit is the sky, but I'm sick of getting high
 I don't want to have to die, just to feel like I'm alive
 I just wanna be I (I just wanna be)
 I wanna see me in your eyes again
 Put this love between your thighs wanna give another life
 I don't want to have to die, (be)fore I get to feel alive
 I just wanna live me life. (To the, to the)
 I was a painter in my last lifetime
 Now I write rhymes like I fight crime, living life blind
 Trying to find peace...
 This girl on my mind that can't find me
 Watch Amelie
 Hoping that I'm going to be the one that she finds
 Can't keep living life in rewind
 I used to fast on the hog, now I eat swine
 And can't stop smoking (blunts)
 Although I keep trying
 In these times when the peace of mind is not a goal
 I be racing to it holding hope. Rejecting change
 Because the pain feels realer than the pleasure
 Rocking sweaters when the weather's sunny
 Funny fellow from the ghetto
 I watch so many foreign films, I feel foreign
 Every morning cooking four-course meals, like I'm starving
 Hardly say grace or say "thanks for another day"
 Even though I'm grateful I try to show it in other ways
 I used to give bums change, til I changed
 Kind of strange cause when I'm richer than I was when I gave
 Got a gang of friends that I don't call or hang with
 Even though I know they on that same shit... aimless
 Shit, I must seem like I don't dream at all
 My mom says that I should draw again
 But I don't want to pen
 I just want to live, have kids, buy a crib like the old days
 Whatever happend to...
 Wanna feel like I can fly again
 They say the limit is the sky, but I'm sick of getting high
 I don't want to have to die, just to feel like I'm alive
 I just wanna be I (I just wanna be)
 I wanna see me in your eyes again
 Put this love between your thighs wanna give another life
 I don't want to have to die, (be)fore I get to feel alive again
 I just wanna live me life