IDK If I'm a Boy

I don't know if I'm a boy
 I don't know if I'm a man
 I know I wanna be called pretty
 But I don't know if I want titties
 I guess I could say gender non-conforming
 But I've done really well conforming
 And non-binary doesn't have the ring I've been looking for
 I am Jake and I am Foster
 I am something in the middle
 But I'm fine with both these names that I've been given
 I don't know if I'm a reject
 I don't know if I'm a loser
 But I know that I've been feelin'
 Feminine since I was teethin' (maybe not that early)
 I don't know if I can rock it
 I don't think my ass is poppin'
 But I know that I've been breathin'
 Different when I'm wearin' makeup
 Maybe then never mind
 I was gonna undercut
 All of my feelings with stupid lines about musical theatre
 That's not what I'm here for
 I have a tendency for irony
 You see those stupid words served to protect me
 But I can't figure out those stupid words
 I don't know if I like he or her
 I remember wearing my mom's high heels
 And these pink work-out sweatpants
 Yeah, I was a little kid
 Who didn't know to hide it
 I remember hatin' all my clothes
 And seeing pretty girls with pretty clothes
 And I was envious
 How can I be one of those?
 I don't know if I'm a reject
 I don't know if I'm a loser
 But I know that I've been feeling'
 Feminine since I was teethin'
 I don't know if I can rock it
 I don't think my ass is poppin'
 But I know that I've been breathin'
 Different when I'm wearin' makeup
 And I told myself, "Lose a little weight
 And you can wear anything you want"
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 And I tried to wait until I lost enough, but
 It never felt like it came
 And I told myself, "Lose a little weight
 You can dress any women's clothes"
 
 And I gained some weight, then I told myself
 "Fuck it, bitch, I am writing a song"
 Now I know that I'm a reject
 My own special kind of loser
 But I know that I've been feelin'
 Feminine since I was breathin'
 I'm not sure if I can rock it
 But I'm sure my ass is poppin'
 And I know that I've been breathin'
 Different since I've got this feeling