Torn Apart by Horses

I came to seeing a rubber loop
 Cutting the blood off
 That goes to my hand
 Piece of lint from my pocket
 Before it was shocking
 But everything seems to just melt inside of me
 Puking up something to make me feel nothing
 So, I can go into a trance
 Tap a vein, running, a son of a gun
 Or a son of someone that could never get over it
 Torn apart by horses
 Every time I see your face
 Killing me in doses
 Watching blue turn to grey
 Before I fade away
 Blood starts flowing
 Reality is going a million miles in my head
 In a saddle I'm sitting
 I think about quitting
 But nothing can stop
 All the pain that goes with it
 Night after Night
 Fight after fight
 I have with myself but can never win
 Trial to keep running
 A shot to score something
 A life that is nothing but pain and emptiness
 Torn apart by horses
 Every time I see your face
 Killing me in doses
 Watching blue turn to grey
 Before I fade away