If I Was Dead

Lately I've been learning to let go
 To let go of anything
 Lately I've been seeing someone I don't know how to put behind me
 And it scares me
 Somehow, I don't know how
 I don't know how this rapture found me
 But I'm cradling it now
 I don't know, I'm not in denial
 This is one thing I'm taking with open arms
 Cause your body throws away its leaves
 And it leaves me for dead
 No choice but love in the afterlife
 Til we exhaust ourselves in the heat of it all
 Still we lie next to each other
 In silence, still breathing
 Solid gold like solid love
 How do you recognise it
 I don't know, I guess
 I don't know, I guess in dreams I find it
 I've been loving from time to time
 And when I returned, you listened
 So I stayed here in what felt right
 Even if it took time
 Cause your body throws away its leaves
 And it leaves me for dead
 No choice but love in the afterlife
 Till we exhaust ourselves in the heat of it all
 Still we lie next to each other
 In silence, still breathing
 If I was dead
 If I was dead