Facing Time

Last time I had a schedule
 It said Maths and Geography
 Last time I felt embarrassed
 I was stood in the dock and my mum couldn't look at me
 Last time I seen my dad
 He was asking me if I'm gonna do this properly
 Now they call me an MC
 Master of ceremonies
 But time is the master
 Because time will turn all this to a memory
 And I don't think I'm built for the industry
 All the fake smiles and laughter
 Make me want to turn into a mystery
 Cause I know what people are after
 Critics and journalists trying to get to me
 I preferred being a grafter
 You know, living under the radar
 With nothing but drugs and money to look after
 But now I've gotta see television as a factor
 I've got responsibilities
 Everybody wants something
 But they come wearing a mask
 Cause they're never gonna ask ya
 Even a friend can turn to an actor
 They act like they're happy you made it
 But feel like they deserve your wages
 And at that point it's the end of the chapter
 I'm losing friends and gaining enemies
 In fact more to the point
 I'm losing patience with negative energies
 I had to change my number
 Because conversations were lacking in relevance
 I wanna be tough for the future and this year
 I don't want a war with the elephants
 I don't wanna go back to claiming benefits
 I used to love money, but I don't no more
 I got money that I don't count no more
 I'll listen out for the trial no more
 We don't have to be down no more
 But I'm facing time
 I'm famous now
 So I'm facing time
 They wanna know what I mean by facing time
 If I could turn back the hands of time
 I'd go back to when I had freedom
 But now I'm facing time
 First time I've felt secure in all twenty five years
 First time I've felt like I don't need people to deal with fears
 First time I told my dad I loved him
 I was being sincere
 But family's a word
 And words just don't mean nothing out here
 I brought exposure to my city
 And I don't care
 By those who feel like it should be them
 And it's not fair
 Bring me one other person that could've climbed these stairs
 I know they don't want me to succeed
 But I've been saying my prayers
 They wanna know what I mean by facing time
 They wanna know runs through the mind of a famous guy
 They think fame means plenty of money
 And a glamorous life
 But fame is a jail
 And not everyone here will survive
 I'm new to the wing
 New to the guards
 New to the vibe
 For the things I've done
 I'm facing life
 Where else could I go?
 I don't blend outside
 Looks like I'll just have to do my time