Current Situations

Everyday I been sinning, I'm praying father forgive me
 And all the dirty I done did, it's getting harder to sweep it
 I can't believe that you're gone, things are not the same
 I fucked up, but then adults can do some childish things
 How did this happen, where we go wrong I still wanna know
 We were lovers and once friends, but look at us both
 'Til this day I'm still here for you, some kisses and hugs for you
 No matter the circumstances, I'll always have love for you
 We use to joke about it, now it's reality
 Handling the situation admitted to everything
 Now both of them hate me, because I did them both wrong
 I told you passion has a price, that's why I'm writing this song
 Admitting my selfish ways, it's getting harder each day
 But every time I see you face, I picture walking away
 It's so much easy to say, up in this song as it plays
 I think about it every day, I hoping you're do the same
 Now let the song cry, why
 These my current situations all bullshit aside
 Quick to send a message, waiting for the reply
 I use to tell myself and you I'm not that typical guy
 And all the shit you been through, and I knew of it too
 I watch you cried on the couch how could I did this to you
 That shit was devastating, handing my key, grabbing my things
 And my baby that's unborn, I can't even see
 Now you look at me different, it ain't the same yeah I get it
 I don't never wanna be the one you think of resenting
 Now I'm at the therapist, how could it just come to this
 Trying to figure out how in the fuck I'm fixing this
 I don't know where it's going, I'm holding on to the moments
 Every day I wake up, to give me my all and be open
 I'm feeling lost but I'm hoping, that everything will get better
 Found my soul up in this song, as I jot every letter
 It's so much easy to say, up in this song as it plays
 I think about it every day, I hoping you're do the same
 Now let the song cry, why
 These my current situations all bullshit aside
 Yeah
 I like that shit right there
 Yeah
 So much is on my mind and I can't even show it
 'Cause I know you're watching me and how I deal for the moment
 I gotta keep it together, it's all on me I realized
 I live a double life, it's hard to keep the other aside
 Now we five months in, you're asking me what's the name
 When we talk about it all I really see is your pain
 Now I struggle to tell my kids, my oldest at that
 My granny said I'm like my father, I don't wanna be that
 Still that hurt 'til today, my sister turned me away
 Had to watch my momma cry when I told her the same
 This my life but live it, shit I know what I did
 And I'm giving him my time, just like the rest of my kids
 Nobody stand in my way, fuck what everyone says
 It ain't the first it happened to or be the last shall I say
 It's so much easy to say, up in this song as it plays
 I think about it every day, I hoping you're do the same
 Now let the song cry, why
 These my current situations all bullshit aside