Pillow

Face down, down in my pillow I'm biting feathers to fight my terror
 I've gone to thinkin' again about what
 I've done and where I should have been
 And I know that I'm only 25 and my mother says that my future's bright
 But I can't stop thinking how I fucked it up and I can't turn back now
 And I don't know what to do,
 I don't know what to do when this feeling hits
 I don't know how to breathe,
 I don't know how to breather when this feeling hits
 Face up, up to the ceiling,
 I'm learning how to face the feeling of terror rising
 In my lungs at where I've been and what I should have done
 And I know that,
 I'm only 26 and not every shot I fire's gonna hit on the target
 But I'm learning how to screw it up and carry on anyhow
 And I don't know what to do,
 I still don't know what to do when this feeling hits
 I'm learning how to breathe and I guess
 I'll count to 10 when this feeling hits
 And I've not got the time to feel
 This panic 'cause you're spending my life
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 The world's burning on this perfect day,
 Seas rising and winter's not the same and it's tempting to
 Just give up now, live fast, die young, let them go to hell
 But that's just what they want me to think – if I fight the tide then
 I'm gonna sink so I'll breathe in and breathe out
 Again think twice act nice and raise my voice to them
 And I don't know what to do 'cause the
 Problem's so much bigger than you and me
 I'm often feeling doomed but don't mistake that feeling for apathy
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 And our uncles at Christmas dinner say that we are just too young,
 And that we'll grow up one day as
 Well and then we'll be just like them
 And we won't see the price in a human
 Life beyond a paycheck a week a mother or wife
 We'll be scared of what we don't
 Understand and we'll buy up big on this stolen land
 There's a lot to be afraid of, if you've got a lot to lose
 It's a hardworking delusion that all you
 Earnt was you and I'm not gonna swallow it
 'Cause it feels like giving in to the game laid out to me
 Even if it's one I'd win