A Suicidal Failure

Remember how good things used to be?
 Remember how good things everything used to be?
 It used to just be so good
 It used to just be me and this girl
 My mask of sanity's about to slip!
 Sittin in my room with a razor blade
 Thinkin all my days are played
 As much as my single needs to fade away
 Shoot myself in the arm and start bleedin
 Don't wanna go yet, stick a straw in my
 Wound and taste my heart beatin
 Fuckin bitch left me and I ain't even peeped yet
 (Fuck all that noise playboy, this leak's wet)
 Smoke a bundle to the face lace my brain and neurons
 Carvin all my downfalls into my fuckin forearm
 (Cage snap out of this, it's just a girl)
 It's just the world, it's just a life
 It's just a rusty Rambo knife
 Wedged between my ribs scratchin my heart up tonight
 I'm gonna pull this shit off in front of all my friends
 Went swimmin under the Brooklyn Bridge tryna catch the bends
 Didn't swim deep enough my head imploded ten percent
 Floated to the surface, the paramedic's like - what's this dent?
 (I want everbody to back up, he's still alive)
 I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure
 I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error
 Do what I can to catch a quick death
 But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with
 I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure
 I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error
 Do what I can to catch a quick death
 But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with
 Took the phone off the hook, ate multi-colored pills
 Washed it down with Absolut and started writin out my will
 Give my dawg bootlegs PS2 in DC
 To my girl who left me when she said, "Pick me or PCP"
 Since I love to smoke I thought it was a joke
 Tried to hang myself and I fell free from the rope
 Broke both my arms, my neck smashed my femur
 Got up somehow and limped in front of a beamer
 Cracked my rib cage, look what you did Cage, you're dying
 But I'm not dead yet I'm still trying
 Cut my wrist and walked past some crips bleedin red
 In hopes that I get shot in the fuckin head
 I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure
 I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error
 Do what I can to catch a quick death
 But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with
 I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure
 I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error
 Do what I can to catch a quick death
 But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with
 I drank a bottle of Jack, sniffed three bottles of kitty
 In the middle of the freeway walkin to the city
 So much PCP I changed my name to watermouth
 Pumpin Masta Ace I walked into a jewish slaughterhouse
 Throw myself on the hook, now that's the chorus
 Got split from my neck to my dick, now that's what gore is
 Hollow man look at all my dangling parts
 Dropping to the gutter with a piece of you in my heart
 Little piece of shit that I couldn't fling from my chest
 Should of stayed alive long enough to kill the fag you're with
 But right now, my skin is gettin stripped off
 Each one of my limbs is ripped off covered in thick sauce
 My head hits the conveyer, I'm not thick and a prayer is sick
 I'm watchin a movie at Lowe's alone and you suckin some guy's dick
 Six seconds left when I die I'm gonna find her
 On some Poltergeist shit while my face goes through the grinder
 I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure
 I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error
 Do what I can to catch a quick death
 But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with
 I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure
 I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error
 Do what I can to catch a quick death
 But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with