You

Dear well, I probably shouldn't say your name
 I just wanted to tell you that a lot of things have changed
 The other day I found this letter that you wrote to me, so ima read it
 I swear it's like the sweetest poetry
 So look, you always saw the bright side of things
 And you taught me to appreciate the nice silent things
 Remember I was just a kid trapped and forgotten
 But you believed in me, that'll never be forgotten
 And you was older so your words spoke loud
 As I look back at it now I gotta find you in that crowd
 So what a mess, look at me with all the stress
 If you ran into me now I'd probably never find happiness
 We used to party but I never really drank
 I just went into the bathroom and I poured it down the sink
 And now I grab the bottle even tighter when I hold it
 I gave my soul to you, but you turned around and sold it for your own life
 I guess I'm being selfish now
 But I got a lot of clout from this fucking rapping style
 You told me that I changed, I'll admit it
 But its strange cause I'm sitting thinking you the one to blame
 So I hit you on your cell just to know it went to voicemail
 So how we gonna communicate, I'll never know
 I guess I gotta let it go
 Don't cry just go to that place
 You needed time so I gave you space
 I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you
 I'm doing this for me yo, not for you And I just wanna know if you can hear me
 So maybe turn it up, speak a little clearly
 No matter how many songs I make
 You gonna never hear me say that I made a mistake
 And that I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart
 You put up with a lot it was a problem from the start
 And even if you took me back it wouldn't be the same
 I'll even get a tattoo for you of your name
 And you know I never meant to be an asshole
 I guess it's greener where the other people's grass grows
 But wait a minute, why you wonder if I'll stay committed?
 I used to visit you when you was at your baby sitting
 But now I need a chaperon to even get me through the day
 The minute that you left I had so much to say
 I never got the chance to even tell you that I loved you
 Fuck you, now I only see you when I"m looking up above
 You must be selfish to take your own life
 What about me and the other people that I thought you liked
 And now that you're gone sometimes I wanna do it too
 I can't, I gotta stay here just to spite you
 I'll write you when, damn I'm not like you
 We all got demons I wish that you could fight too
 You lost the battle and you tossed it in
 But you're up there in the sky and I'm down without a friend
 Do't cry just go to that place
 You needed time so I gave you space
 I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you
 I'm doing this for me yo, not for you