The After Party

I must have no control
 I might have lost my mind
 I am the scum of the earth every single night
 Every morning when I wake
 My head feels split wide open
 And my hands start to shake
 Poppin' bottles isn't all fun and games
 Become the wretched
 It's the price that you'll pay
 Broken beyond repair
 You're gasping for air
 After all this time I should have learn my lesson
 But rock bottom isn't quite low enough
 In the face of losing my home
 I'll admit I need some help
 Someone to guide me
 Someone to lift me off the ground
 And change my life around
 I wanna live for more
 Put down the bottle with no remorse
 I choose to be free
 And destroy all that's killing me
 Try as hard I may I might still lose my way
 Strength comes from inside but do I have it in me
 I'll just have to dig down deep
 But if I start to falter will you reach out for me
 I wanna put down the poison so bad
 But around my throat I feel it's hand
 My brain is bleeding
 My soul is filthy
 If you could save me
 Am I worth saving
 I am the wretched
 It's the price that I've paid
 Broken beyond repair I'm gasping for air
 After all this time I should have learn my lesson
 But rock bottom isn't quite low enough
 In the face of losing my home
 I'll admit I need some help
 Someone to guide me
 Someone to lift me off the ground
 And change my life around
 I wanna live for more
 Put down the bottle with no remorse
 I choose to be free
 And destroy all that's killing me