Vanta Black - Redux

Injected in my veins I see my world turn black
 The perception that I've gained I can never take back
 Logic, reason and eternal regret
 That I will never forget, that I will never forget
 Broken down and beaten by subconscious mind, that never ceases to betray me
 I give up, I submit, I admit that I am worth nothing to anyone anymore
 These thoughts I had so long ago overshadowed by the constant reminder that I'm irrelеvant
 Swallowed up by these ovеrbearing waves of shame and guilt
 I wish I had known these truths
 I wish I knew what I was
 I wish I knew what I'd become
 Fucking irrelevant
 I worship the pain and I worship the guilt
 So I dream of ending it all now
 To depart from a world of pathetic self indulgent, sycophantic cunts
 Please spare me the pleasantries
 You're not in this for me, you're in this for yourself
 To try and prove to us that there is a god who truly loves us
 But you're wrong
 False idols and lies won't save your soul
 Only the blackened embrace of the void will set us free
 So pray to your god, he wants you all to suffer
 I have a deathwish and I will see it to the very end
 I'll hang by my neck until I'm fucking dead
 Let my ashes blow to the wind
 So that my name may never be said again...
 Let me close my eyes to sleep
 Eternally
 I have a deathwish and I will see it to the very end
 Let my ashes blow to the cold wind
 So that my name may never be said again