Silken Robe

If I scream into these sheets when I'm alone
 Does it make some kind of sound
 With no one here to hear it
 Tearing through my throat
 If I raise my eyes to see a silken robe
 As dark as starless night
 Do I still have a say in
 When it's time to go
 I just can't care anymore
 Should my footsteps fall
 Without pause towards the end
 How sufficient was my love
 More or less than final
 Words between two friends
 "You are a home to me" is what you always said
 So in this quiet, empty place
 All I can ask is if I stopped giving you that
 Sorry I'm so absent
 I'm just so scared anymore
 Feels like someone's going to
 Pull the fucking floor
 Sorry I'm so quiet
 I just can't talk anymore
 Every word drives the blade
 Deeper than before
 I've been so scared of failing
 I just can't care anymore
 There is a point at which sleep
 Is more for shelter than rest
 I cannot speak any healing
 Pummeled and out of breath
 I cannot make you believe
 That I love you to death
 I cannot spread any hope
 If I don't have any left
 Light bursts from the side
 When my hand stings my face
 And it doesn't chase the darkness
 I've created away
 And it doesn't change the way
 You will remember my name
 I fucking promise it's me
 I fucking swear I'm the same
 Sat reclined, driver's side
 And the rain understood
 I can't be rid of my bad
 I can't be rid of my good
 I cannot choose which
 Parts of me are misunderstood
 I can choose which parts of me
 Die underfoot, yeah