Decades of Despair

I'm drifting through life without any goals
 Blindfolded fool, in my heart there's a hole
 I've looked everywhere but I can't find the real me
 The righteous one, the one I always wanted to be
 In my dreams I'm all covered in blood
 Beaten to death, lying in the mud
 If I died tonight it would be such a relief
 My soul would finally be free
 To a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belong
 For I have lied, and I have sinned and I have killed your dream
 Sleepless nights turn into years
 Decades of despair
 All hope is gone since years ago
 Almighty god bring me home
 Unconscious for the last time in my life
 I hate it! Time to lie down and die
 Let the darkness take me home
 A beautiful end of my totally wasted life
 To a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belong
 For I have lied, and I have sinned and I have killed your dream
 Sleepless nights turn into years
 Decades of despair
 All hope is gone since years ago
 Almighty god bring me home