i heard heaven is a nice place

Pick up the phone, you see that I'm calling
 You know I know that you're falling
 This is the last day I'll spend on this Earth
 If you need me, on the floor I'll be sprawling
 The scars that you gave me are burned in my brain
 The devil, he works in mysterious ways
 And I know for sure that I see him in you
 I think he's the reason for all that you do
 Like all the abuse
 That you put me through
 You paralyzed me, I don't think I can move
 You took my life and you ripped it in two
 The trauma I live with, but I didn't choose
 I felt things I shouldn't have felt at that age
 Like in my own house, but I couldn't be saved
 Like looking at you only filled me with rage
 And you were the reason I knew how to hate
 But you're my sister
 You know I love you, but don't get it twisted
 I know forever we'll always be distant
 The piece of my soul that'll always be missing
 I know that it's missing
 You're hating me, so as long as I'm living
 I can't look at my friends in the face
 When talking 'bout you, and that's something I live with
 But that's what you wanted, right?
 I know you'd be happy if I took my life
 I'm sorry to say that I already tried
 If you could be there on the night that I die
 You'd probably say that you'd do it yourself
 You'd drown me again while I scream and I yell
 'Cause bruising and cutting the flesh from my skin
 Wasn't enough so you put me through hell
 Why do you want to hurt me?
 It's all my fault
 
 Pick up the phone, you see that I'm calling
 You know I know that you're falling
 This is the last day I'll spend on this Earth
 If you need me, on the floor I'll be sprawling
 The scars that you gave me are burned in my brain
 The devil, he works in mysterious ways
 And I know for sure that I see him in you
 I think he's the reason for all that you do
 Like all the abuse
 That you put me through
 You paralyzed me, I don't think I can move
 You took my life and you ripped it in two
 The trauma I live with, but I didn't choose
 I felt things I shouldn't have felt at that age
 Like in my own house, but I couldn't be saved
 Like looking at you only filled me with rage
 And you were the reason I knew how to hate
 But you're my sister
 You know I love you, but don't get it twisted
 I know forever we'll always be distant
 The piece of my soul that'll always be missing
 I know that it's missing
 You're hating me, so as long as I'm living
 I can't look at my friends in the face
 When talking 'bout you, and that's something I live with
 But that's what you wanted, right?
 I know you'd be happy if I took my life
 I'm sorry to say that I already tried
 If you could be there on the night that I die
 You'd probably say that you'd do it yourself
 You'd drown me again while I scream and I yell
 'Cause bruising and cutting the flesh from my skin
 Wasn't enough so you put me through hell
 Why do you want to hurt me?
 It's all my fault