Cheer Captain

I was nine and talking to God in the shower
 I knew he was busy, said "Sorry to bother
 But why am I so bad at being pretty like my mother?"
 I wanted to please her
 Guess I've always been a people pleaser
 I tried to be quiet, play nice
 But I knew I wasn't doing it right
 And I cried, wiped my eyes, and then smiled
 'Cause they didn't know I was living a lie
 I don't know when it happened
 But I don't wanna be your cheer captain
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 I shouldn't have called, I know he's probably busy
 And when he fucks me over I'll say that I'm sorry
 And then I'll take it all off so he says that he wants me
 'Cause I'm a people pleaser
 And now he's doing lines with the boys on a Monday
 Showed up at my house, all strung out, like, a day late
 Watched his stupid band at the club, no one else came
 I'm a people pleaser but I don't want to be her
 I tried to be quiet, play nice
 But I knew I wasn't doing it right
 And I cried, wiped my eyes, and then smiled
 'Cause they didn't know I was living a lie
 I don't know when it happened
 But I don't wanna be your cheer captain
 How did I let it happen?
 I don't wanna be your cheer captain
 I was so sad then
 I don't wanna be your cheer captain
 Wish that I knew then
 That I don't wanna be your cheer captain