Made It Past October

Dried eyes and I'm trynna stay sober
 The more that I, the more I get older
 Heart of fire when you want it to be over
 Imagine texting your friend and the mother respond
 I'm running to the bathroom, I just need a minute
 Put a smile on, no I'm next to go
 Want nobody else to feel the way I'm feelin'
 I wanna go (ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah)
 I, God I know I'm too early but I missed my friends
 Dried eyes, and I'm trynna stay sober
 More that I, the more I get older
 Heart of fire when you want it to be over
 (can't erase my friends)
 I wish I had called
 But where should I start
 Could I have done something different? I don't know better
 You and I were trynna stay sober
 You tried and I made it past October
 I feel all foggy cause I don't know if I should get up
 It's so crazy to you, it's so normal to me
 I'm feelin' numb now I {?} don't feel nothin'
 I'm always feelin' shitty but my stories not finished
 I wanna go (ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah)
 I, God I know I'm too early but I missed my friends
 Dried eyes and I'm trynna stay sober
 More that I, the more I get older
 Heart of fire when you want it to be over
 (Yeah I miss my friends)
 I wish I had called
 But where should I start?
 Could I have done something different? I don't know better
 You and I were trynna stay sober
 You tried and I made it past October
 Truth and I, make a lie, tell everybody that
 You're taking off three days, the thing about suicide
 Cause I
 I'm not ready to die
 Truth and I make a lie, tell everybody that
 You're taking off three days, the thing about suicide
 Cause I
 I'm not ready to die