Desperately Trying - Swing Mix

Never fears at home when he is with me
 That is where he told me where he loved me
 Leaving me desperately trying to understand
 Desperately trying to find a home for him to move to
 Desperately trying to find a place for us to stay
 Said he never really got through to me
 That I never opened up emotionally
 Guess I kind of lost my trust on the way
 Since he is gone I'm sinking
 Sinking deeper into who I really am
 Now I'm brave enough to show what's inside
 But it's too late
 Sad he'd never loved me
 That he always stopped for his feelings to grow
 And I went and hope and hope for things to change
 Since he is gone I keep on finding out
 All these little things about him
 Realized in fact that he was always there without (?)