Paradox Lost

In the midst of my last attack
 Panic drags me into the black
 Weak and frail I leave myself behind
 In the darkness I am reborn
 Full of queries but all forlorn
 This new life will destroy my mind
 Passion or possession?
 I can't decide
 Engulfed by my life's obsession
 In questions I will hide
 Debating the solutions
 Lost and perplexed
 I'm stumbling through the confusion
 Quandaries so complex
 Battle in my head
 I look for answers but no one's there to guide me
 Battered by the dread
 That all my worries will remain inside me
 Drowned in desperation
 Border is crossed
 Heading towards obliteration
 In the paradox I am lost
 Sanity deteriorates
 Broken and torn
 Madness rapidly propagates
 Waiting to unleash the storm
 Battle in my head
 I look for answers but no one's there to guide me
 Battered by the dread
 That all my worries will remain inside me
 I'm lost in the paradox
 Quandaries so unorthodox
 Messing with my head, making me loose my mind
 So lost in the paradox
 Locked up inside the box
 There's a battle in my head, and I'm really loosing my mind...
 I'm slowly turning inside out
 As I question what it's all about
 The desperation feeds on me
 A ravenous cancer, tearing me apart
 Paroxysmal, evil death
 Lost in mind, lack of breath
 Paradoxical way to die
 So confused, I close my eyes