Raspberries

there was a time that i thought that i'd died
 the very next day i felt so alive
 i decided not to keep living with fear
 so odd a time after 16 years
 the sunshine falls in my new home
 like everyone else i'm all alone
 with all the back alleys of a life
 always the bridesmaid, never the bride
 if you walk right up to me
 tell me you believe
 that you really wanna fit in
 'cause sometimes you feel this way
 feel so far away
 and when i was young, you bedroom was dark
 stared out in wonder at the outside park
 but the voice in the corner would say to you
 you won't escape from those teenage blues
 so you walk right up to me
 gave those pills to me
 (?) after slumber
 and sometimes i feel this way
 feel so far away
 remember apple trees in the garden of our home
 remember walking down the street
 frozen to the bone
 remember shirley maclaine in some come running
 comes running back to you
 all at once i feel sick inside
 swallow twice, here come blue skies
 but you won't ever have liberty
 until you put this feeling in a dictionary
 you walk right up to me
 tell me you believe
 in the politics of passion
 and sometimes i feel this way
 i feel so strong all day
 you've been living out your life
 through half-closed eyes
 you've been living out your life
 through half-closed eyes
 dreaming of utopia
 did you ever, can we ever, will we ever
 and the rain falls down in north london town
 and our love is so strong
 but we can go wrong
 and it's great to be a (?)
 it's so good to kiss you, all your (?)
 just like raspberries
 just like raspberries