Afterthought

I woke up this mornin' still wearin' that tie
 The one with the hammer and sickle design
 Threw up all the pills my doctor prescribed
 And went out to fetch me some air
 The streets were so crowded with billboards and signs
 Food trucks double parked in their parallel lines
 I thought about breakfast but settled on wine
 Always choose hunger over despair
 And what's possible over what's there
 But it isn't as though we get what we want
 No matter how hard or long we have fought
 Oh my happiness is a mere afterthought
 When I'm with her I keep it in mind
 Then she leaves and I've run out of time
 I sat down today in a high barber's chair
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 To hear the town gossip and clean up my hair
 He said she was seen on the bus station stairs
 With her suitcase threatenin' to walk
 Not sure how true it was but I'll hazard a guess
 It's probably not more and it's probably not less
 If that college kid bookie was accepting bets
 The brackets would mostly be chalk
 Yeah it's safe to assume that she's lost
 But it isn't as though we get what we want
 No matter how hard or long we have fought
 Oh my happiness is a mere afterthought
 When I'm with her I keep it in mind
 Then she's gone and I've run out of time
 I can't be concerned with the state that I'm in
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 At the height of the scandal with vertigo spins
 Take every audition til I'm Errol Flynn
 And bring it to life off the page
 And I'll get up tomorrow still wearin' that tie
 The one with the skull and the crossbone designs
 If I'm asked if I miss her it's easy to lie
 In this world that's called more of the same
 Yeah I wouldn't feel proud or ashamed
 Cuz it isn't as though we get what we want
 No matter how hard or long we have fought
 Oh my happiness is a mere afterthought
 When I'm with her I keep it in mind
 Then she leaves and I've run out of time