Standing on the Outside Looking In

Standing on the outside looking in
 Don't feel any different it's the way it's always been
 In the world of headless well dressed mannequins
 You're always standing on the outside looking in
 I remember when you taught me how to bathe
 In the roadside motel bathtub
 I watched you shave your legs
 You swore that we would take this to our graves
 I remember when you taught me how to bathe
 You said only I can make you happy
 But I'm not gonna tell you how
 I don't want this to last forever
 Only now, only now
 There's a place she longs to be she'll never go
 Took a picture at the window with the camera on her phone
 Got off one more time, then put back on her clothes
 There's a place she longs to be she'll never go
 Now I'm standing on the outside looking in
 In a world of paper tigers and imaginary friends
 It's a shame I can't be bothered to pretend
 When I'm standing at the outside looking in
 I told you how I planned on dying
 But you know I always joke around
 I'm up for never saying never
 At least for now, at least for now
 Because I could never make you happy
 But I know just how to calm you down
 We don't have to see the future
 Only now, only now