Hex

My body is decades ahead of my brain
 And seconds away from giving out on me
 The thrill is gone and replaced with an ache
 So dull it could lull me to permanent sleep
 And you are an angel, you are a saint
 But I gave up in grade school on the Catholic faith
 And gave myself over to evil and hate
 As you pray for my soul, I'm out searching for prey
 This summer weather you love is boiling my blood
 And all my good intentions have spoiled in the sun
 I recoil at the sight of happy people having fun
 Give me a cooler full of anything strong that's big enough
 To stuff my body into when I'm done
 I'm your increasingly unwanted guest
 A lost soul you wish you never found
 You saw something in me and brought me home
 Now I am here to put a hex upon your house
 And all these love songs you play burrow into my brain
 Sever my nerves and disconnect my heart from my veins
 I'm in pain at the thought of having any real feelings for anyone
 All I want's the drone and drag of going numb
 To creep into my crawling skin as I wait for night to come
 I'm your increasingly unwanted pet
 You couldn't bear to watch them put down
 You tried to save me and give me a home
 Now I am here to put a pox upon your house
 Hope springs eternal from a hole in your
 Head is a smoking inferno of terror and
 Dreading the day when reality finally seeps
 In through the cracks in the floor
 And crawls into your
 Better judgment said
 You should've left when you still had the chance
 I'm your increasingly unwanted pest
 But you just can't bring yourself to move out
 You try to pretend that I don't exist
 But I am here to bring a plague upon your house