Rumination

I can feel the cracks in this masquerade
 Absorbing to conform, surely I'm going insane
 Are these consignments, so defining
 I can't live my own ways?
 Or is this the only thing cementing my name
 I saw the instance, I was going insane
 Drifting to the deep, letting conscious slip away
 No control of unknown, ignorance is bliss we were told
 Weep for yourself, I will not be a construct
 No control of unknown, ignorance is bliss we were told
 Weep for yourself, I will not be a construct
 Composure an endless rehearsal
 When your mind is searching for paradigms
 Bring all of your debts to the surface
 And trust that you will survive this time
 Despaired reality renders my thoughts unclear
 These vacant faces they all just glare
 Seeking the solace here in this affair
 Why cant i drown in elation
 Paranoid, I'm locked in this bitter state
 With nothing void, why do i feel this way
 Only one brain controlling the habits, disastrous
 Maybe well embrace reactions
 Maybe we'll evolve from madness
 But sharing is a loaded fragment, relax kid
 Overthinking yourself to ransom, abandon
 Taming reality just to break from the static
 Locked in this bitter state
 Why do we feel this way
 Maybe well embrace reactions
 Maybe we'll evolve from madness
 Intoxicated breaks make my delusions real
 This inquisition will not avail
 There's no foundation here to awaken the idea
 Why can't I drown in elation
 Paranoid, I'm locked in this bitter state
 With nothing void, why do i feel this way
 Push these thoughts up the hill
 Bottle it all up
 Does hiding from these voices
 Make you feel alive
 Or could you confide
 Tell me do you feel alive
 Or could you confide