Above Me

Am I avoiding this breaking down?
 The every year you've forgot to count
 And I've been dead since you left this house
 I guess I realised something when I fell
 It wasn't troubles that led me here
 I left my sorry heart with you
 Now on the day you swore you're leaving everything you've known
 Maybe your footsteps led me, farther than to where I'm meant to lay
 I'll find you waiting in my head
 I'll be home again
 Just leave me here resting
 The words will cover every step
 The leaves will cover every step
 I held every day we longed
 The water still reminds me of (Her)
 I had a lot to explain
 I had a lot to explain
 Where were you waiting that day?
 Why was your body resenting the rest, when you begged me not to feel the same?
 I've not been myself for days
 I was the sound of you, holding my breath
 As you begged them to push me away
 When you begged me not to feel the same
 Am I alive?
 Am I as safe as I was before?
 Am I the year that we lost it all?
 And you'll fade, it becomes me
 Now I'm at the point where my lungs give out
 I need you closer now
 I held every day we lost
 But you stay the ground that's above me
 Me, I'm fine