Last Stand

They say, "never ever gonna 'mount to anything in this life"
 But I've got some pride I'm not swallowing, call on it tonight
 And they may be right, dropped right outta my high school
 Got a gun to my head every night
 Real talk, with a trigger that I might pull
 Nobody knows it, it's over for me
 I'm over the edge, an I'm blowing up inside
 Cause I'm not who I'm supposed to be
 Nobody's chosen me
 Too sick for the heavens and yet
 I've neglected the demons in my head, I'm directed like I'm
 Never gonna get another chance at joy with somebody else
 'Cause I'm too vindictive, addicted to pain
 And yo, it might've helped
 If I hadn't read into this so stupidly
 It could be you and me in the future, fucking in love, and mutually
 But it's never gonna be that way, life is looking down now
 Gotta get my fam outta debt, Get my hands on a check
 With a mic, I'm looking right out at the crowd
 In my dreams, if you really wanna know what I mean
 That's too bad, 'cause I just don't trust
 Anyone anymore, you're an enemy scene
 This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean
 'Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine
 I can't take it
 I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy
 So save all your goodbyes
 I'm gonna give it to you one last time
 So if you hear me
 Just throw your fists up
 You're gonna miss me
 When I'm gone and I give up
 Day one I'ma take it slow
 Happiness, I can't make it show
 'Cause I've been forgotten, there's no fixing a forsaken home
 And the bread, I'ma make my dough
 Whatever means, I don't hustle crack
 But whatever it takes, I'ma make my cake, and I might just bust a rap
 For the green, I see no point
 To be doing it free, my joints
 Are the hottest products up on the market, rocking, bringin' noise
 But I can't do that, cause I do rap for the fans when I need to vent
 And you'd better believe me
 This ain't easy
 I cannot breathe and bet
 That if I collect a check, for the words in my notepad
 I'm giving it all away to my family, and it's so sad
 That it really had to come to this but I'm a fuck up, and you love it so
 And the pain that I gain from the life
 That I'm living isn't gonna get covered, no
 I just can't keep up with my music life or my challenges
 Between being me and pleasing you, I can't balance it
 An' this may be the last album if you don't stop sleeping and playing me
 'Cause you are never gonna hear another
 Motherfucker drop this shit like David G
 This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean
 'Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine
 I can't take it
 I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy
 So save all your goodbyes
 I'm gonna give it to you one last time
 So if you hear me
 Just throw your fists up
 You're gonna miss me
 When I'm gone and I give up
 You're gonna miss me
 You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (gone, gone, gone, gone)
 
 You're gonna miss me
 You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (gone, gone, gone, gone)
 You're gonna miss me (miss me, miss me, miss me)
 This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean
 'Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine
 I can't take it
 I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy
 So save all your goodbyes
 I'm gonna give it to you one last time
 So if you hear me
 Just throw your fists up
 You're gonna miss me
 When I'm gone and I give up