submerge

Sitting by myself
 And wondering
 Why the only bliss I feel
 Is from the things that aren't real
 I want to know
 If I was
 Given the chance to change it all
 Would I give in or would I fall?
 And now
 I'm submerged in it all
 Everywhere I look
 I'm surrounded by my faults
 I wish
 I could put it all on pause
 Wait a minute
 'Til the storm calms down
 I wish
 I could be happy
 From the little things I see
 But I'm constantly reminded
 Of the things
 I couldn't be
 And I know before I get away
 There's still a lot that's left to say
 But now
 I'm submerged in it all
 Everywhere I look
 I'm surrounded by my faults
 I wish
 I could put it all on pause
 Wait a minute
 'Til the storm calms down
 And I know I've come a long way and I'm better with myself
 But there's still that nagging feeling I belong to someone else
 I don't know if I'll be happy but I'm better off alone
 I know everything is simpler when I do it on my own
 And I'm sorry if it hurts you that I'm pushing you away
 But I think it'd hurt you more if I were to let you stay
 I don't want to be your burden
 I'm my own and it's enough
 All these thoughts I've been submerged in
 Say the waters will be rough
 I'm running out of time wish I could put it all on pause
 And wait a minute
 'Til the storm calms down