Lost In My Infinite Memory

Hi, how are you these days?
 Everything seems sort of crazed
 And I feel so lazy, I could cry
 I feel like I could lay down and die
 And I feel like my life is already gone
 And it seems so hard just to get it on
 Though I think I'll try just for fun
 Though I fail
 I love you all but I hate myself
 And there doesn't seem to be anyone who can help
 And everything has turned out bad
 I'm so sad
 Why do you think I'll never give up?
 Drinking from my broken cup
 Although I'll never get enough
 I'll never fall in love again
 It's a sin, I just can't win
 It's like we were both stupid fools
 And hatred and horror ruled our worn out brains
 It's the same old songs of pain
 Gone public domain
 And it seems as if the road just goes on and on
 And I'm gonna write a letter to my friend
 Ron and my dad is outside mowing the lawn
 Till the dawn