Norma Desmond

It's been a minute since I thought about it, let alone talk about it
 seen the darkest clouds and wonder why the Lord allowed it
 rain pouring down, umbrella? I got caught without it
 bet that I'd get wet with it so I could walk without it
 let's not talk about if grandma's good... awkward silence
 swimming in the hospital sheets she saw her daughter drown in
 grandpa's gone, she calls me to talk about him
 can't understand what she's saying, I'm just nodding, smiling
 and laughing whenever she laughs, I know she knows it
 so we going through the same song and dance... dosey doeing
 I give you my heart, I know it's broken, it's supposed to open
 it doesn't, I know it's closed but it wasn't
 always that way, it took a bad day
 Danny, you better man up or whatever dads say
 didn't give my mom enough presents, regret my past ways
 future looks brighter, for now I'm where the shadow casts saying
 Never know what you got until it's long gone
 singing the wrong song
 but it still sounds good to me
 we gon' take the long way home for this one
 for this one
 we gon' take the long way home
 Then it became a question of what means more to me
 I'd marry Marilyn Monroe, ignore the Norma Jeanes
 can't wear normal jeans, barely can afford these things
 was never 1 2 count my blessings rocking Jordan 3s
 thank God 4 this lean, sort of seems appropriate
 they call it lean, I use it as a crutch, wonder what's broken it's
 up to my lungs and my liver, my heart had enough
 bad enough I'm bad at love, no one never had the guts
 to tell me love ain't there or for that matter that it was
 this never had a daddy stuff added up
 am I bad at math or what? better with words though
 better at getting to 7-11 than stepping in church yo
 needed my herb rolled up in something that burn slow
 church folk only told me go to hell and burn slow
 words don't hurt though after a glass of merlot
 mine start to slur, won't forget what I heard though
 Do you lie to see me smile like I do?
 don't answer that
 don't answer that
 (repeat)