My Shadow Self

I'm done counting my own steps
 Really care no more what I am to do next
 You're so good, you never cry
 And no matter how many times I lie
 You cannot stop playing nice
 For once
 Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
 We're fighting hard and nobody can make it through
 You're being gracious, giving the best you have
 But all I can give you back is my shadow self
 Sticks and stones, we know the rhyme
 Some won't ever solve my immaculate crime
 Yet you struggle to reveal
 What of this is true, which of me is real
 And if you think this is nice
 Think twice
 Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
 How could it be that nobody has made it through?
 I break the mirrors, seeking the best I have
 And they just keep on reflecting my shadow self
 Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
 We're fighting hard and nobody can make it through
 You're being gracious, giving the best you have
 But all I can give you back is my shadow self
 Why am I spoiling everything you hold dear?
 How could it be that nobody has made it through?
 I break the mirrors, seeking the best I have
 And they just keep on reflecting my shadow self