Libriyum

Loaded to brim with Librium
 Hallucinating in some retro tele nova
 Just using worse drugs to quit the drugs
 I've been using to stay comfortably numb
 Used to be I'd drink myself through every twist and turn
 But now I've grown up
 A bit
 And seen some shit
 Made my mistakes
 I've lost and won
 What did I learn?
 Holy shit I'm not dependent anymore
 It's fucking weird
 I've been an addict for a decade
 Now I can see the world so clearly
 And it's terrifying
 My mind feels rejuvenated
 All those thoughts I drowned out
 For so long are bubbling back up
 And they're driving me crazy
 Oh, look now I can feel again
 The numbness has evaded
 How real life it's fine and dandy
 No, it's not I fucking hate this
 Is this really how all these sober people live
 Life sober is over stimulating
 Piece of shit
 This feelings hell and boring normalcy
 Why did I even quit?
 Oh yeah that's right, I almost died
 So I suppose I'll give this sober train a ride
 At least until I yank out all my teeth
 Does this boredom never cease?
 Reality is a disease
 Oh lord, I need a fucking drink
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 I sit in slippers on a dog hair coated sofa
 Staring at the ceiling contemplating God
 Why I numb myself and what I'm so afraid of
 All while I trying to ignore these racing thoughts
 I've a never-ending nagging need to figure out the point
 Or maybe there just isn't one
 We're all just maladroit
 Moronic meaningless abominations
 Hurdling towards an empty everlasting blank oblivion
 The clarity is killing me
 But so were the drugs
 Why can I not just exist happily
 Without being numb?
 Is there something I'm missing
 Which others have found?
 If you've answers inform me
 I'm being drug down by the weight of unknowing
 It's really bummin' me out
 I've been to hell and back
 And seen so much
 Beneath the heavens
 So what did I learn?
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 Left to my own devices
 And stripped of all my vices
 I possess a tendency
 To overthink and analyze things
 But I don't think it worthless
 To contemplate our purpose
 Now that our society
 Appears to have become so thoughtless
 It seems especially important
 That we take a sec to gather some perspective
 And remember that we're all just specs
 Of dust within a vast expanse
 Created out of happenstance
 Diluted from the same initial spark
 So let's party down