Stay Up, Stay Alive

Soo hard to look myself in the eye,
 peer soo deeply to whats hiding inside
 true evil that I never thought,
 to hurt after all those times
 I've been hurt and now I'm retracing all my steps,
 drawing back all my breaths until my death my brother and me, my mother and me...
 All those childhood memories
 why the fuck can't i find my way
 forgive all these sins i can't afford to pay
 it's been too long since i've lost my way
 forced to sit back and watch my life decay
 the pain is too real,
 soo many scars i can't help but feel helpless
 feeling falls over me like being stabbed and stabbed repeatedly
 sob story plays out before my eyes
 regret that makes me feel less than alive empty
 hole in my heart where my lies could hide painted image of the world
 that i'm locked inside
 ntil my last my goal is to stay alive
 survival of the fit only the strong survive
 so i'll swing and swing until i spit my last
 forever I walk down this dead end path
 forever I walk alone
 forever I walk alone
 forever I walk alone
 forever I walk alone
 forever I walk alone
 My mind is an ocean and I'll sink like a stone
 I can't bear this cross these thorns
 as I follow the reaper down this path alone