The Convenience Of Being Absent

I'm sorry that we didn't know how sick you were
 your world in brilliance did you cut yourself from there
 to change your wild perspectives somewhere along the road
 to dream of oceans till your head wants to explode
 what is your substance?
 what are you made of?
 and all your grimaces like curtains on the wall
 to guard against our eyes to nullify it all
 your deepest wish directing dramas in your head
 "leave your person and be someone else instead"
 what is your substance?
 what are you made of?
 have I not deserved to grasp we're perfect and complete
 have I built these walls around us forever you and me
 forever you and me
 forever you and me
 and all intelligence has to be left behind
 to spend an evening without you on my mind
 while you are better off with any of these pills
 we keep on juggling animosities and thrills
 we thought you were funny
 what is your substance?
 what are you made of?
 have I not deserved to grasp we're perfect and complete
 have I built these walls around us forever you and me
 forever you and me
 forever you and me
 can you pretend to be there and love to be alive
 can you pretend to be there and love to be alive
 love to be alive
 love to be alive