Self Medicate

I am diseased*
 Can't take the pain
 I'd rather die than be alive
 Inside of the sobriety
 Fuel the fire with the weed and the pills and the booze that will set me free
 Throw it away, throw it away
 This is my new reckoning
 Now here me scream
 The suffering
 It burns like gasoline
 So I self medicate the pain
 To escape this world of shame
 Obscurity leads to severity
 So I self medicate the pain
 To escape this world I hate
 I self medicate
 I am dizzy
 From suffocating on the lies you feed
 Deny deny your hope of sanity
 Fuel the fire with the weed and the pills and the booze that will set me free
 Throw me away, blow me away, throw me away
 This is my new reckoning
 Now here me scream
 The suffering
 It burns like gasoline
 So I self medicate the pain
 To escape this world of shame
 Obscurity leads to severity
 So I self medicate the pain
 To escape this world I hate
 I self medicate
 Standing above myself and watching a part of me die
 I see it all just starting to fade away
 Though it's true I've always wondered
 How I would say goodbye to myself
 So now I fall again
 And I can not pretend
 There is no resurrection
 So now I fall again
 Now hear me scream
 I am diseased
 Can't take the pain I'd rather die than be alive
 Inside of the sobriety
 Fuel the fire with the weed and the pills and the booze that will set me free
 Throw it away, throw it away, throw it away
 The suffering
 It burns like gasoline
 So I self medicate the pain
 To escape this world of shame
 Obscurity leads to severity
 So I self medicate the pain
 To escape this world I hate
 I self medicate