Becoming Myself

People tell me that I'm
 Going to hell if I don't change
 That liking the same sex is wrong and really kind of strange
 That I should find a man and possibly get engaged
 Find a father for my son and live holy
 Everyday
 But they don't understand the pain that comes with those words
 Should I listen to the world or should I put myself first
 I remember waking up from the pain
 And the hurt
 Several suicide attempts
 Because I didn't know my worth
 Popped pills behind the will
 My life I was fighting
 Thank God I'm alive
 Man I was only nineteen
 Tried to go to church
 But they told me I was wrong
 Didn't feel like I belonged
 So I took myself home
 Anxiety if I die
 Will I go to heaven?
 Does God love me?
 Even though I love women
 I remember crying in my car
 Wanted to end it all
 Then I thought about my future as I let my tears fall
 Fastfoward I'm engaged with a son
 I learned to love myself
 And don't listen to anyone
 This is for anyone
 Who just doesn't feel supported
 Give yourself time
 You are freaking loved and so important
 And if you want to cry it out
 Cry it out
 It's okay
 No matter if you're
 Straight
 Bi
 Trans
 Queer
 Or Gay
 You are worth and you're beautiful
 You're far from the usual
 Your life is oh so worth it
 Because you are freaking perfect
 How you are
 Fifteen years old
 I wrote my mom a letter
 It was National Coming Out day
 So I felt a little better
 I said if she loves me she will accept me for who I am
 So I wrote her a note and left it on her nightstand
 I said
 "Mommy I love you
 Thank you for all you've done
 I just want to say I'm Gay
 I don't want to hurt anyone
 I hope I didn't disappoint you
 I hope you don't cry
 I hope you still love me
 Even though I don't like guys"
 I ran away that day
 And didn't come back
 My mom was calling my phone
 Literally back to back
 I thought that she was going to hate me
 I thought that she was going to curse
 I called her up that night and asked her to meet me up at a church
 Crying
 Tears running down my face
 She told me she love me
 But it was wrong to feel this way
 She told me that I'm young
 And I was going through a phase
 That I should change my ways and that my life will be okay
 Fastfoward I'm engaged with a son
 She loves her and my son
 She's my supporter
 Number one
 This is for anyone
 Who just doesn't feel supported
 Give yourself time
 You are freaking loved
 And so important
 And if you want to cry it out
 Cry it out
 It's okay
 No matter if you're
 Straight,
 Bi
 Trans
 Queer
 Or Gay
 You are worth it
 And you're beautiful
 You're far from the usual
 Your life is oh so worth it
 Because you are freaking perfect
 How you are
 Fastfoward I'm as happy as can be
 I'm Gay
 And I'm proud
 And I can finally be me
 This is for anyone
 Who just doesn't feel supported
 Give yourself time
 You are freaking loved and so important
 And if you want to cry it out
 Cry it out
 It's okay
 No matter if you're
 Straight
 Bi
 Trans
 Queer
 Or Gay
 You are worth it
 And you're beautiful
 You're far from the usual
 Your life is oh so worth it
 Because you are freaking perfect
 How you are