Drown V3

They say I'm a grown man now
 Say I'm grown man who should know the direction
 Of my future
 At least a little bit
 Not a little kid (No more)
 Sweating on my eyes, longs socks and I'm old at the park
 People and their friends
 Rolling up the board asking me for a spark
 (I'm sorry, I don't got, I don't have a light)
 I've been out of options in a arc
 In a dream that I never had
 (Open my eyes lost in it)
 And I woke up with some cold blood
 -On my hands. I've been overnight, no love
 There my chest, fill a hole, there's a cold cut
 Just me, just me and no soap
 Red Eagle Champagne with the top down
 With my friends, feeling down, but all smiles
 Mood swing, mood swing, I swing my head
 (Swing my head down)
 So I stay focused this, I gotta pray now
 Gotta get moving, but I rather lay down
 I said so much, what to say now?
 Taking over L.A. but I might hit the Grayhound
 -I am my own captain
 It's my fault if I sink
 Don't grab my hand, please don't
 I rather fall alone
 I rather- (Yeah)
 Back for the real me
 I've getting smarter
 Feeling down more and more making no sense
 More I learn, more I notice I know shit
 Older with a plane getting nowhere
 Either way depressed
 Wherever I'm moving I'm still not a man yet
 And I got a good dad too
 Lord sees I'm a failure, just a poor man and I fucking up
 And I hope is dump in a deeper pit
 Can't sleep this up, can't run away
 I got friend to save with fucked up mental health
 And I'm by myself and I'm ok, I think
 I mean, I've been on my iphone, walking with my eyes low
 I don't even smoke, man, I don't even even drink either
 That don't even mean shit no more
 I've been on my iphone, doing nothing
 And I'm praying that one day I'mma get get, get better
 Fame is all you need, problem solved, get cheddar
 God level, god level voice
 I'm a god and I got a god level texture
 Burning my boats, lost in a ocean
 (Trying to scape)
 Wait, but I swim
 Out of my couch
 Out of my car
 Out of my room
 They kick us when we're down
 Sayin' your grown, don't cry
 Kick you when your down
 Regret that you're alive
 Ooh-oh
 Refuse (uh) to give up, but
 I refuse (yeah uh) what I'm saying now
 (We refuse to give up, to give up)
 Ay, tell em get out of my way
 Out of my head going crazy
 Just tell em get out of my way
 (We refuse to give up, to give up)
 Time to get out of my building
 Get myself fucked off my face
 Tyler said: water my gardens
 I'm stunnin' all of you hoes
 I might just dance on the ceiling
 Believe I'mma chase at that feeling
 I might wait for the keys
 Might chase after the gold
 I've been on the D.L.
 Going through depression
 Locked inside my room
 Just leave alone.