6 Months

6 months in, I feel nothing
 Supressed the love I had to give
 I can't believe that this is me
 I need to flee
 So I quit my job to get job done
 But still I'm here with nothing won
 That 9-5 was killing me
 I had to flee
 6 months in, I've been drinking too much
 But there's something about that sloppy rush
 And I can't turn away 'cus I'm so afraid
 That the things that I've done means it's way too late
 It's been a whole week in bed and I still can't feel
 All these Bills in stacks means fuck this is real
 The unbearable shame is what keeps me away, yeah I flee my all my problems like it's a game
 6 months in and I'm afraid
 I'll never feel a thing again
 Oh well
 Like nothing
 I fell
 Again
 6 months in, I fall apart
 The bottom that I hit real hard
 I lost so many parts of me
 I have to flee
 The music might be all I have
 But I just can't get out of bed
 This isn't where I thought I'd be
 How do I flee?
 6 months in, This is total despair
 But the aura of failure is stuck in the air
 I don't care about the things that I used to love
 Oh, All I ever want is to get lost above
 Then all the sudden thoughts of suicide
 Yeah I admit that I want to die
 So life is short? maybe mine is shorter
 And It's way too late, 'cus I crossed the border
 6 months in and I'm afraid
 I'll never feel a thing again
 Oh well
 Like nothing
 I fell
 Again
 I created a monster
 After all, it seems
 A second version of me
 That I am when I flee
 So are all of the parts that I can't set free
 All of the parts that I hate to be?
 It's been 6months straight of feeling nothing at all
 I'm a twisted monster full of scars
 A burden to see so I hide and I flee
 But most of all, a fucking burden to be
 6 Months in I've been smoking and drinking
 To stop myself from this stupid thinking
 I'm ugly and scarred and I lost my heart
 What makes me me has been torn apart
 6 months in and I'm afraid
 I'll never feel a thing again
 Oh well
 Like nothing
 I fell
 Again
 6 months in, i still can't feel
 Will this be the end of me?