Freaking Out

Pitch black then boom
 I'm part of this reality
 Time is of the essence
 And so is my sanity
 Everywhere I go
 I soak up new information
 With sophisticated computation
 I tried to predict and progress
 But I can't make any sense of this
 I'm numb to the bone upon my throne
 With everybody telling me to get in the zone
 But you know I'm...
 Dazed in adderall
 Caged like an animal
 Can't seem to keep control
 (With words as ammunition)
 Well I'm on a mission to pay attention and listen
 And absorb what I can, before my expiration
 I should really put the books down
 But I can't stop freaking out
 Are we nothing but a cocoon for the future
 Or just a simulation on a computer?
 What the fuck is all of this?
 And what happens when it ends?
 Will I just float through time and space
 Without a name or a face?
 Or do I just die and that's it?
 The end of my days, nothing happens
 Mum, I hope I get to see you
 After every ordeal that we've been through
 I fucking hope there's a heaven
 'Cause I've got so much to tell you
 I'm on a mission from God
 To prove that God was a fraud
 And I am not gonna stop
 Until you've lived a day in my socks
 Self administered frontal lobotomy
 That's the only way you'll ever
 Get these ideas out of me
 I'm freaking out
 I'm freaking out
 I'm freaking out
 I'm freaking out
 I'm freaking out
 Shut the fuck up, don't tell me to calm down
 I'll relax when I'm six feet deep in the ground
 I'm freaking out
 I'm freaking out
 I'm freaking out
 I'll relax when I'm six feet deep in the ground