My life is like swimming across the Atlantic and i'm drowning

Why must you be so kind, dear?
 It brings me pain
 When I can't help but fall in love
 And you can only feign
 You tell me to strum differently
 My songs sound the same
 Well, it never was about the music
 As much as the message
 So I tried to be like Sam
 I tried but I'm different
 Like maybe I should walk to the underworld
 And die an early death
 I wish that I could treat you
 The way you deserve
 But experience has taught me darling
 You'll leave me on the curb
 With a large pile of clothes
 To carry as I roam
 Searching for a place to rest
 And needing you, being all alone
 I tried to be like Sam
 I tried but I'm different
 Like maybe I should walk straight to the underworld
 And die an early death
 Longing for your smile
 I'll stand by and wait for awhile
 Awhile, more like eternity
 'Cause you don't even know
 What you mean to me