Chaos

I feel like I just woke up at the
 Bottom of the ocean for the very first time
 Took a breath of water and I'm drowning just fine
 Look up at the surface and refracted sunlight
 But the more that I climb
 Feels like I'm falling further into
 Places where the nothingness and chaos collide
 I think I've come to grips that there's no way I'll survive
 The last thing I remember is your autumn brown hair
 I can see you down there
 I can see you down
 I can see you down there I can see you down
 I can see you down there
 (I said I said)
 My head keeps pounding and these drugs kicked in they just won't work
 (You said you said)
 Just keep on drowning cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt
 I keep my eyes wide open and I'm seconds
 From the surface as the currents converge
 My hands can feel the air but still my body's submerged
 A cold Atlantic tide immobilizes my
 Nerves and I don't know what you heard
 But when I woke up screaming I was
 Desolate and desperate a horrible sight
 Abandoned on an unfamiliar shore in the night
 I'm lost inside the ocean no one ever found where
 I can see you down there
 I can see you down
 (Days grow older, nights get colder, the sky seems closer now)
 I can see you down there I can see you down
 I can see you down there
 I said I said my head keeps pounding and
 These drugs kicked in they just won't work
 You said you said just keep on drowning
 Cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt
 I wanna make things harder on myself
 I wanna make things harder on myself
 I wanna make things harder on myself
 I wanna make things hard
 I said I said my head keeps pounding
 You said you said just keep on drowning
 I said I said my head keeps pounding and
 These drugs kicked in they just won't work
 You said you said just keep on drowning
 Cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt
 I wanna make things hard
 I wanna make things hard
 I wanna make things harder on myself
 I wanna make things harder on myself
 I wanna make things harder on myself
 I wanna make things hard