Choke

I know where this is going, I hope I fucking Choke
 Fuck, I can't think straight
 I can't see straight
 Can't live this way
 Crushed beneath the weight of all this shame
 I can't escape
 Pick apart the past until I lose my mind
 Looking at myself through brand new eyes
 I don't look back in anger...
 I look back in shame, I blame myself
 I wish it didn't take so long to see
 That this isn't a good place to be
 Burning as I walk through hell
 Backs keep turning like a carousel
 And I don't want to feel these things I have to feel
 It feels like I'm not supposed to be here but I have to feel this
 No I can't run anymore, the time has come to face it
 No I can't run anymore, I have to try erase it
 And I don't really wanna talk about what's going on inside my head
 Honestly I'd rather be dead
 And I know it, yeah I know where this is going...
 And I hope I fucking choke
 Pick apart the past until I lose my mind
 Looking at myself through brand new eyes
 I don't look back in anger...
 I look back in shame, I blame myself
 Yeah I blame myself for all of it
 This weight cannot be lifted
 Wish I never existed
 And I really mean it
 I hope I choke
 And I don't want to feel these things I have to feel
 It feels like I'm not supposed to be here but I have to feel this
 No I can't run anymore, the time has come to face it
 No I can't run anymore, I have to try erase it
 And I don't really wanna talk about what's going on inside my head
 Honestly I'd rather be dead
 And I know it, yeah I know where this is going...
 And I hope I fucking choke
 I know where this is going, I hope I fucking choke