drugs

'Cause I had the best of the worst sides
 And I had these lungs, oh
 And I had too many flash fires
 That I just let them burn
 
 'Til my chest is on fire
 And my head just won't die
 I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna
 I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
 'Cause I just feel so tired
 Like it's move or slowly die
 You say, you ain't you, when you're like this
 This ain't you and you know it
 But ain't that just the point?
 And you don't know how to let go
 Who said this must be all or nothing?
 But I'm, still caught below
 And I'll never let you know
 No, I can't tell you nothing
 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
 But still, I could always be
 Whatever you wanted, but not what you needed
 Especially when you been needing me
 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
 And I'll say what I don't mean
 Just 'cause I wanted, or maybe I need it
 Swear, lying's the only rush I need, yeah
 
 'Cause all I needed was some words to say
 That all these feelings don't mean shit to me, yeah
 'Cause it's all just chemicals anyway
 Anyway, yeah
 And I got way too many routes to take
 To make this all just go away and find another heart to break
 So heartless with these words I say
 Just saying what I'm supposed to say
 'Cause I had nothing for you
 I can't love when I can't even love myself
 Things I would rather be, thoughts in the back of my head
 But I'm addicted to hurting
 And I got these lungs, yeah
 And I spent too many late nights
 Just thinkin' a hole in earth
 'Til the sky is on fire
 And my head still won't die
 I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna
 I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
 'Cause I just feel so tired
 Like I need something to come alive
 She said "You ain't you when you're like this"
 This ain't you, what you doing?
 And I said, that's the point
 And you don't know
 How to let go
 Who said this must be all or nothing?
 But I'm still caught below
 And I'll never let you know
 No, I can't tell you nothing
 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
 But still, I could always be
 Whatever you wanted, but not what you needed
 Especially when you've been needing me
 'Cause I'm a fucking mess inside
 And I'll say what I don't mean
 Just 'cause I wanted or maybe I need it
 Swear, lying's the only rush I need
 Yeah, yeah,yeah
 Yeah, oh yeah, yeah, oh yeah
 Ooh, oh-ooh, oh, yeah
 Ooh-oh, oh, yeah
 I need it, yeah, I need it, I need it, yeah, I need it