I Will Be Absorbed

Half of the time, I spend working alone
 When I'm working out songs, or just lying in the sun
 The magical sound, that I long to express
 Always just out of reach, of my groping hands
 Like the wanton muse
 Beckoning to me
 Vanishes before
 I can see her face
 How many times has a transient dawn's
 Beauty faded away, before you understand
 And a woman whose smile, is a lingering song
 Brings tears to your eyes, though you don't know why
 Like a fragrant light
 Moves before your eyes
 A million miles away
 Never to return
 Wafting past from my childhood
 Hazy thoughts and sensations
 These must hold the key to my life
 I always find those indefinite things
 If I manage to touch them, they turn into stone
 And the quality that kept me following them
 Is only a sound that I knew all the time
 If I ever find
 What I'm looking for
 I will be absorbed
 And never write again