Nighttime Routine

In the wine aisle looking for a scapegoat
 Cuz my liver can handle what my heart won't
 And my mother wouldn't like that I'm drinking
 It would kill her if she knew all the reasons
 Turn off the lights turn on the tv
 No amount of melatonin's gonna make me sleep
 I hate my nighttime routine
 My head gets so fuckin mean
 Stressing about the future living in the past
 Pretending I do but I don't know who I am
 I miss being 17
 Before I lost my virginity
 Before I started to wonder if I was enough
 I didn't think twice now I think way too much
 I hate my nighttime routine
 Adding steps in my skincare to keep me distracted
 Tryna kill time cuz I don't feel attractive
 Can't get in bed without 10 different pillows
 I actually prefer all the noise out my window
 Turn off the lights and turn on the tv
 No amount of melatonin's gonna make me sleep
 I hate my nighttime routine
 My head gets so fuckin mean
 Stressing about the future living in the past
 Pretending I do but I don't know who I am
 I miss being 17
 Before I lost my virginity
 Before I started to wonder if I was enough
 I didn't think twice now I think way too much
 I hate my nighttime routine
 Swear I'm okay and this won't last forever
 It's been good before so it's gotta get better
 Oh oh
 I hate my nighttime routine
 My head gets so fuckin mean
 Stressing bout the future living in the past
 Pretending I do but I don't know who I am
 I miss being 17
 Before I lost my virginity
 Before I started to wonder if I was enough
 I didn't think twice now I think way too much
 I hate my nighttime routine
 I hate my nighttime routine
 I hate my nighttime routine