the list

Here's a list of the things that I wish I could say to you
 Held back 'cause it's so hard to tell the truth
 Face to face, and I can't seem to get you alone
 So here I am, hear my voice on your left and right
 Listen once, I won't take too much of your time
 Let me have this so I can let you go
 Yeah, the night that we met, I guessed you'd mess me up
 Though I tried to forget, you still got in my head
 Now I'm trying not to think too much
 But I wasn't lost
 'Til I thought that I might be on your mind
 I switched it off
 Or so I thought, 'til your lips locked in with mine
 And I swear I
 I won't cry in the silence you're leaving
 It's not your fault I'm bleeding
 I should've known better than ever to let you in
 Did you know, for the past couple months or so,
 You've been behind all my highs and my every low
 Yeah, you really dug in deep there
 So while you go around, so unaffected
 I'm wondering how we got disconnected
 I guess we were never on the same page at all
 But I wasn't lost
 'Til I thought that I might be on your mind
 And I shook you off
 Or so I thought, 'til your hand fell in with mine
 And I swear I
 I won't cry in the silence you're leaving
 It's not your fault I'm bleeding
 I should've known better than ever to let you
 I won't ask our friends about you
 I'll just talk in circles around you
 I know I'll survive you out of my life
 But I won't laugh as loud without you
 Yeah, the night that we met, I guessed you'd mess me up
 But I wasn't lost
 'Til I thought that I might be on your mind
 I switched it off
 Or so I thought, 'til your lips pressed into mine
 And I swear I
 I won't cry in the silence you're leaving
 It's not your fault I'm bleeding
 I should've known better
 I should've known better
 I meant to know better
 Than ever to let you in