Sea Of Symmetry

I'm now drowning into question
 Everything I've ever known
 The answer is not in my heart nor in my hand
 It may never be
 I've looked to the sky
 I've grasped for the sun
 I've witnessed a tectonic shift
 And have seen the static hit
 And ever through the darkest of the night
 Mornings never fails to comes
 I am living I am breathing
 Perhaps what is meant to be sought stand before us
 And not beyond
 While there may never be meaning
 So different from what I have envisioned
 Witnessing every neuron collapse
 But I paid no mind
 It made no difference
 Learning to live on and let go
 Reminiscing over what could have been
 But it will never be
 And with black cloud above me
 I catch my breath
 It all fall into place
 Like we we're made for this
 Patiently I gather words that I had forgot to say
 In another passing wave
 If this life temporary let come what may come
 Perhaps what meant to be sought
 Stand before us
 And not beyond
 Beyond
 My will versus that of a force that I will never know
 Perhaps it's the way in which I observed and felt that I must grow
 To push forward
 This room with no door is filling us
 Filling us both with dread
 It's almost as time is choosing to exist
 Only within our head
 And with black cloud above me
 I catch my breath
 It all fall into place
 Like we we're made for this
 Patiently I gather words that I had forgot to say
 In another passing wave