The Seas

I'll sit outside these doors and keep my engine running
 Until I calm the seas within me
 Make a choice to carry on or carry out
 My dream to be the one you sing to
 When you're cold and all alone
 Know that I am here and I'm still holding on
 You can call me a coward
 (You can call me a coward)
 Or you can call it breaking free.
 My lungs can't handle anymore of this tonight
 So I'll just go home before I say too much
 Oh no, I've said too much
 The taste of coffee on my tongue, so bittersweet
 Mirrors the taste of what it's like to lose absolutely everything
 Thickened air and thickened skin reminds me of what could've been
 Had I not felt pressure on my ear
 (Had I not felt the pressure)
 My lungs can't handle anymore of this tonight
 So I'll just go home before I say too much
 Oh no, I've said too much
 (I say too much)
 For the record, I am part of something wearing thin
 The same thing thrusting me into this mess that I am in
 I never thought I would find beauty in what once was dead
 Some will fight, some will fly, I haven't made my choice yet
 (I saw a robin fall from a tree)
 (And the worst part is I couldn't do a damn thing.)
 My lungs can't handle anymore of this tonight
 My lungs can't handle anymore of this tonight
 So I'll just go home before I say too much
 Oh no, I've said too much
 (I say too much)