something to live for

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 Hey, uh, I know I'm probably the last person you want to be hearing from right now
 But, uh, I realized a lot of things about myself
 And, uh, I just, y'know, thought I would tell you about them
 Sometimes in life, it feels like everything's wrong
 Hands shaky, vision blurred, I don't feel like I belong
 But then I watch a sunset
 The fiery orange ignites something within me, and I realize color in the world is what you Make
 So maybe I'll watch every single sunset
 I mean, I'd watch sunrises too, but usually I sleep in way too late
 And sometimes, my ears ring too loud
 I snap at anyone who dares even look my way
 But then I hear a young child laugh
 Pure, unbridled joy that hasn't been tainted
 It reminds me that broken hearts can be repainted
 It's a simple joy
 Just like the smell of autumn and new beginning
 The way people yell their hearts out in the car when they're singing
 The ability to sit, feel my heartbeat, and breathe
 How sometimes, not always, but sometimes, my soul feels in line with everything
 The anticipation of waiting for someone to open a gift
 The first hug after seeing someone you've missed
 Loving hands caressing your face
 Holding someone and bringing them so close until there is no space
 The anxious anticipation the night before a big adventure
 Friends who will go places, no questions asked, where and whenever
 Hearts that have been repaired and scars that are healing
 When your chest lightens back up, and you're finally feeling
 And you're finally breathing
 It all makes it worth it a thousand times again
 Because even though I hold all this pain and anxiety within
 I know that as long as the sun rises and sets from the sky to the floor
 As long as those stars in the sky are alive, I have something to live for
 I guess, uh, what I'm trying to tell you is just there so many small, beautiful things on this Planet
 You just got to look for them
 You just got to seek out a little bit of joy, a little bit of a reason to live every single day
 And you gotta keep going
 So, uh, I hope you're doing well
 Yeah, whenever you hear this, maybe call me back or something