Astral Mariner

Movement...
 I'm asleep in a fog
 That nothing can cut through
 The constant of time standing ever still
 Waters pristine, oar rippling stars
 An endless expanse
 Empyreal mirror
 What is this light
 Piercing heaven's sky
 I cannot see
 I cannot see
 If only I knew
 What this weatherworn face would see
 I'd have set sail for another shore
 These seas tumultuous and merciless
 Those sent to guide me only drove me deeper into storms
 Beset into defeat, gripped by paralysis
 Pumelled by relentless rains of doubt and despair
 Despite the weight of it all
 I'm not sure if I felt it at all
 And as I sank like a stone
 I feared too much to ask of you
 To reach down and pull me in
 Or to turn away and let me go
 Leave me here
 I'm the only one I trust
 Not to deepen these wounds
 Cast me adrift
 I'm safer alone
 I can guide myself home
 Wherever that may be
 Why am I so numb
 To the terrors I've seen
 To the pains I've felt
 To the fear I've known?
 Countless in number they are
 They say they are my strength
 But each scar is a weight
 Pulling me further
 Each make me sink
 Forlorn visions of bygone times are lost in the swell
 Reality's rawness is lost to the daze
 Bring me sleep
 You are lost but I have found my own place
 In this maladjusted world we call our home
 I hid in the stars
 I conjured a world
 I made my escape
 You cannot hurt me here
 I longed for the same as you
 But I'm at peace now
 Whatever story they tell of me
 Through the lens of misjudgment
 Means nothing to me here
 With doors open wide
 Come find me