numb

I'm still aching for something more to life
 I'm still searching, might never be satisfied
 I'm always faking putting on a smile
 Yeah, will I make it? Might never get past 25
 Shit, I'm so lost in the fog
 Got nowhere to go
 Don't think this is my place at all
 It's a never-ending hole
 Pretending I'm whole
 Just wanna numb it all, fuck
 Look, I'm not listening, I'm in my own head
 Please tell me something that I'll forget
 I find it hard to even care about anyone else
 When I can't even care about myself
 Am I really better than anyone else?
 All I do is make music with no fucking help
 Maybe I'm just angry at myself
 And I project it at everyone else
 In the surface I know I'm fine
 There's just so much shit in my mind
 Don't have trouble with people, I have trouble inside
 I'm a mess inside
 I'm still aching for something more to life
 I'm still searching, might never be satisfied
 I'm always faking putting on a smile
 Yeah, will I make it? Might never get past 25
 (Will I make it?)
 (I'm still searching)
 This might be the realest I'll ever get
 I think a lot about putting a bullet through my head
 And I don't even wanna die, just want the pain to stop
 'Cause sometimes it's unbearable for no reason at all, fuck
 I'm so tired of making sad songs
 But it gets hard to be happy when you all alone, shit
 Sometimes it gets hard to even get up
 (Make it stop)
 I'm still aching for something more to life
 I'm still searching, might never be satisfied
 I'm always faking putting on a smile
 Yeah, will I make it? Might never get past 25